It's been so long since I posted, so much has happened. My mom had a mastectomy and takes an estrogen blocker now. I think I was in shock for months. I still hear that silent scream in my head. I still get scared.

Watching my mom go through surgery, seeing her hurting hurt my heart so much. I couldn't believe how quickly they sent her home from the hospital-the next day. I saw a side of my dad that I've never seen before. He was so compassionate, caring, and scared. I don't think I've ever seen my father scared before. He emptied my mom's drains, that totally shocked me. He never even changed our diapers.